A little girl

That's really all I am. I am a little girl who loses her way sometimes, gets upset over nothing, and has a lot to learn.

I'm going to need lots of help!!!


(But I am feeling better since the last post. Much better. And it's all thanks to Jason. I sometimes feel like I don't deserve having him around. He's so good to me. <3 But I love him. More than I ever thought I could love anyone.)

Boring Friday Night

Here it is, the first Friday night I'm staying home by myself for the first time in 3 months. And it SUCKS!!!

I feel like crap, to be honest. I thought I would be fine earlier in the day, but now I just feel like crap. I just want to cry. And if I keep it up, I most likely will. I got home from interning about 3 or 3:10, and got right into reading the series I am in the middle of. Yeah.... It got to be 5:30 and I was bored with it. Here it is now, almost 6 o'clock, and I feel terrible. I want to just be held, but I won't be. I'm gonna have to suck it up and just let myself cry.

Going to bed at 7pm is looking mighty good.... if I even make it to then. *sigh*

After such a good day interning, this sucks.



2 positives about today. I pretty much was in charge of the class all day (by myself, with only a little help from the teacher), and my typing speed in the student's computer lab time was a high for me of 81 wpm.


Is it tomorrow yet?

Here it is....

Time for a new blog post?..... I think so!!

Here it is! (Again, I need to update more often. lol Oh well.) (And of course, I should be working on something else..... like cleaning my room some more.... Oh well! lol)


So, I'm down to 2 weeks left of school!!! (YAY!!!! SO happy to be almost done!) Tons of projects and things that are due, but I'm almost done! I can taste the sweet victory!!! Until I start my summer courses and take the AEPA. =/ Then the stress will come back again for a bit. =/ Not looking forward to that. And come August, I'll be student teaching!!!! Graduation in December, HERE I COME!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3 (After tons more stress. =/)


Life continues to move on. I spend all the time I can with the person I can honestly say is my best friend. I tell him almost everything, no matter how silly or serious. (No, I'm not perfect at saying what's running through my head, but it's mostly because I can't articulate what the thought/feeling was, or I want to think about it for a bit first.) The past few months (officially bf/gf for 3 months as of April 16th!) have been amazing! I don't think I've ever been happier. I've still got some ups and downs, but the ups are higher and the lows aren't so low anymore. I love spending time with him, whether it's getting up and doing something, or just sitting and cuddling. He is soooo awesome. :)


Those are the two major things at the moment. Hopefully I'll keep this somewhat slightly updated. (Maybe once a week if I'm lucky?)




By the way, CONGRATS to Kara Morris, who has finished student teaching, has already begun to substitute in schools, and is GRADUATING this MAY!!!! SHOUT OUT TO YOU, GIRL!!!! :D CONGRATS!!!!!

Sitting in class

Yes.... here I go again, needing to do something productive, and instead I'm sitting here blogging.

I've done a lot of thinking lately. About a lot of different things. I'm speaking strictly about school at the moment, though.

6 weeks. That's all there is left, really. Again, I've been surviving another semester. Sometimes I get stressed out, but I've been pretty calm this semester. Less stressed than previously, thankfully. I'm just trying to make it through, surviving school so I can student teach and get my diploma. My main goal: To graduate by December. That's it. That's all I want.... school-wise.

I am so ready to be done. I feel like I've learned a whole bunch of nothing. I'm jumping through the hoops I need to, just so I can be done, which is all I want.

Anyways.... short post so people just realize that I'm still alive. I will try to keep things updated.... may not happen, though. We'll see.

Hope everyone is doing well! (Even though you may or may not read what I've written. lol)

I've really gotten bad at keeping this updated. Although.... I have to admit I'm a little nervous to post, since I found out a certain someone..... (Yes, YOU, Jason. :P ) has been reading my blog.

School and work have been keeping me really busy lately. And spending time with Jason of course takes lots of what used to be extra time (which I don't mind at all), but I'm not as stressed as I would have been any other year. I don't know what it is. I'm a little more easy going, I don't really let my stress get to me as much this semester. Of course, there are always the bad days, but I haven't had weeks where I just want to cry my eyes out all the time. (And I have to admit I'm LOVING being happier.)

Again, another Spring Break is coming in which I will not be able to spend time with my family, even though our breaks ARE at the same time. I made some prior commitments and I'm going to enjoy my spring break, even though it won't be with my family.

I'm still taking each day on it's own (hence putting homework off until the day before). =/ I'm getting bad at not getting it done. (And I am writing this currently instead of writing an essay... Oh well. I'll get the essay done in time.) I always do better under pressure, I think.

I am loving life, loving my boyfriend, and loving the rain we had recently! These are awesome times! <3

Just a little note

So, you know I'm not doing something I'm supposed to, because I'm blogging. Well, in my defense, I've got a light headache (more just annoying pressure in my head), it's been a long day, and I can't focus on my midterm essay.... so you get a new updated post about what's happening.

School. Work. Boyfriend.

That's about it. And most often in that order.

Things are going well between me and Jason. I love spending time with him, although I feel like I'm taking him away from more important things. (I still don't see how anyone could love me. I don't look very good most of the time, I'm overly emotional, and can be very dumb.) My favorite things we've done have been watching the Olympics (almost every night) with him having his arms around me (I will admit I've fallen asleep more than once), and going to see Mary Poppins. Those are the best times. Just enjoying something together. If Wicked were here, I would really take him to see that, because it's AMAZING!!!!

Anyways, that's pretty much it. Olympics have been most of what we've done because we're both tired from school and work and things. He's made me happier than I ever remember feeling. I feel special. Worthwhile. When I know I get to see him, things just seem so much better. He's an amazing person, even though he doesn't think he is. These are some of the best times!

News Flash!!

Alright, not sure who follows/stalks me on Facebook..... but there's a reason why I haven't written anything since December.

I've got a boyfriend. (First official one ever!) And no, it's not James.... he ditched me for BYU. Jason (Yes, another J name. lol Kinda.... long story that I'm not at liberty to discuss....) Anyways, I met him briefly at a Christmas concert, and a few weeks later he asked someone we both know whether I was dating anyone, then asked for me number. Well, the first Saturday of the year was our first date.

I will admit it was a little awkward at first. But amazingly, I felt pretty comfortable around him. (It was a group date.) So the first date ended. When I was deciding about my Birthday bash that I had the day after my bday.... that turned into a double date type thing..... I felt like I should invite him. Not sure why, and if Alana hadn't encouraged me, I probably wouldn't have. XD But I did, and he came. We hit it off even more. Well, our 2nd date was set for that Saturday (9th). We went and had a lot of fun. I learned to Cha Cha. :) We then got some Sonic before heading back to my house where we chilled for a bit. And we held hands.... It actually felt nice.

Sunday, we went to the CES broadcast, and held hands almost the entire time. He got the keys to his new house on Monday, and Tuesday evening, took me to see it. Well, after we had seen it (in all it's ugly yellow color), we were driving back to my house, when he saw a field... pretty empty. We ran out onto it just because. It was pretty fun. Wednesday, we went and saw the Young Victoria.... (GREAT MOVIE!!!!) Held hands and cuddled..... as much as one can do in a movie theatre. And we pretty much saw each other for the rest of the week. I went to church with him on Sunday, as well as my own.... We've hit it off pretty well. He's a good guy, a good dancer, wonderful at piano, smart, funny, nice, gentleman-like.... etc. :) I like him.

Anyways.... long post, but that's why I haven't posted in a while. Hope everyone is having a fantastic new year! :D