Thought of the day

So, I just finished the Chronicles of Narnia series, by C.S. Lewis, and what an eye-opener it was. There were so many wonderful morals and parallels, it was just interesting. I especially noticed the major parallels in the 7th book, The Last Battle, it's amazingly like the times we live in now. It's still having a hard time sinking in it's that deep.

Anyways..... right now I'm just going to focus on one part from the book Prince Caspian, from which the movie is made. Now that I've read the book and seen the movie, I don't remember if they had this part, but I don't remember seeing it. Aslan is talking to Prince Caspian, and he says:

"'Do you feel sufficient to take up the Kingship of Narnia?'
'I-I don't think I do, Sir,' said Caspian. 'I'm only a kid.'
'Good,' said Aslan. 'If you had felt yourself sufficient, it would have been proof that you were not."
-Aslan and Prince Caspian (Prince Caspian by CS Lewis, Ch 15)

And it's so true. If someone says that they're ready for something, that usually means they aren't. But when people tell them that they are ready, the insecurity brings humility, making them good enough for the job that they will weigh all their options and listen to counsel that they need to hear to make a good decision.

I assume it works, because it makes sense. In relationships, if someone is like "Oh yeah, I'm ready!" then they usually aren't ready for that relationship or certain step they're taking. Just thinking about marriage and having a steady relationship, I don't feel like I'm prepared..... and of course I'm not. I need more experience. But it's humbling for me to feel like I don't have any idea what's going to happen. It's the same with my horse riding lessons. At the beginning, I could have told you that I wasn't ready to lope, or to ride bareback on an Arabian that occasionally tosses her head, but since the teacher has told me I can, I know I can do it, although it's really humbling because I have some fears that are almost always present in my mind. "What if I fall off?" is the chief one, yet I manage to stay on and improve.

That's just one of the many thoughts that popped into my head while I read, and in the thinking about it afterwards.

Soooo......

Well..... Kara seems to be the only one that reads this..... that I know of. hehe And she begged me..... alright, she asked why I hadn't posted in a while. XD I have no idea why I haven't. I guess I haven't felt like I've had much to talk about. =/ 

Sooooo..... my life since the end of school has been mostly quiet...... I work 3 days a week, although that might get bumped up if I get too bored. I do the same filing, getting bills ready to be mailed, and other odd jobs. Recently I started relabeling the inventory room. And this week.... I kinda start taking over helping at the front desk, too. Which means, I'll probably have to answer the phones...... AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!! Sorry. Anyone that knows me knows that I have an ungrounded and subconscious reason as to why i am terrified of phones. I'm not talking, I hate calling people, it's..... I am TERRIFIED...... have a nervous break down and cry...... FEAR of phones. Cell phones, telephones, they all scare me. Which is really depressing. =/ Anyways.... random venting.

I had a lovely time with Kara walking, and I have a feeling I'm going to be a bit sore tomorrow. And not just where I stubbed my toe earlier. But it was good for me, and I enjoyed it. 

My sisters are going to be gone for the next few days because of Girls' Camp, so I get the car, my mom, and the house to myself..... and the big screen tv. XD Alright, it's not that big. But it's bigger than what we had, and HD, too. :D Very exciting. A 1200 dollar tv..... basically for free. :) Now that's bargain shopping. ;) Or just being smart. hehe

Anyways.... I've babbled now. I hope I've entertained those of you who are reading this. It's one of my goals in life..... to entertain people. hehe But.... it's after midnight, and I'm tired, so I'm gonna head off to catch a few winks. :) Cheers!

Day of Happiness!

Alright, so I totally have had one of the best days ever, to date. Now if only I could ride a horse. Then my day would be perfect. XD Alright, not quite perfect, but it'd be pretty darn wonderful!

So, first off, I'm done with school until the end of August. WOOHOO!!!! PARTY TIME!!! :D

lol Secondly, I found out at dinner today, something that made me extremely happy. :D:D:D:D:D:D 

I found out that my dad put in a bid or something to see Wicked while we're in London! I wish I could see it here in America, either LA or Broadway, but England is pretty darn cool! I'll have to get used to listening to people besides Kristin and Idina. And OMG speaking of Idina, I totally didn't realize that she was in Enchanted! Anyways, random, I know, but w/e. lol Anyways, I'm SOOOO Happy about being able to finally see it! I love the music, and Kristin and Idina do a wonderful job at their roles. Hence the pics on my page. (Which I'm trying to get to follow my url of being a phantomlover. XD) But yeah, that makes it a good day.

And I got a paycheck. I mean, seriously, who doesn't love making money? 

Thought

I remembered last night about an experience I had one day last week.  I told my sister, but she didn't really respond.

So I was on yahoo.com checking my email, and I guess the cursor landed over the weather section, so it opened up. Now, I have it set up to Mesa, AZ, because that's the weather I need, since that's where I am pretty much most of the time. But this time it didn't say Mesa. The crazy thing it said was Budapest. The only Budapest I know of is Hungary, and the only person I know of in Hungary is James. So I don't know what that's supposed to mean. The other weird thing is that I made sure I hadn't set it to Budapest when I wanted to see what the weather was like there, back in like LAST YEAR. So, I don't know if it's a sign or what. But I've checked my email before and after that one time it said Budapest, and each time it says Mesa. :S

Just a random thought. Could it mean something? Or do I just want it to mean something? 

(Oh, and I'm SOOO Excited for horse lessons tonight. :D I get more pics hehe.) 

So it ends...

Alright, so this is the day of endings for me. :( Sad, I know, especially on one of the things, but that's life. It's beginnings and endings. 

First off... I finished my SPE 222 class. I'm happy about that one ending. 

Secondly, I have finished my last day of classes. Hurray! Now I just have 3 finals. -_-

And lastly for now, I finished the revising of my story, Garnet! :D I'm happy because I'm done, but I'm also sad because I'm done. So mixed emotions on that. =/ If anyone wishes to read all 62 pages, I'll be happy to email it to a certain few, but other than that, you'll all just have to wait until I get it published. XD If I get it published. Now I just have to work on the cover illustration. Maybe I'll do that, since I don't have anything tomorrow besides Visiting Teaching and work. =/ Maybe better yet, I'll work on it on Thursday. I'm not going anywhere until Horse riding lesson #2 on Thursday night. :D More pics of me on horses sometime, if I can get someone to take pics of me. =/

There's my blurb for today. Not that anyone cares. :) Well, TTYL. I'm off for a much needed night's rest. :D

Crazy Bored

Alright, so I'm really bored, so I'll post a random blog. 

I realized recently, that I have not explained the title of my blog. "Musings of a Marvelous Me". Pretty much, I graduated. Yeah, i know, I graduated. It was amazing. XD Anyways..... One of the graduation presents I got was a book called "Musings of a Marvelous Me". It's kind of like a journal, and when I can, I'll post a pic of the cover. It's really cute. But basically, it's a journal/diary type thing and in it, it's got some quotes and a place to put the date. The first quote on the first page says, "The kind of beauty I want most is the hard-to-get kind that comes from within - strength, courage dignity" - Ruby Dee. 

Now how cool is that? It's been a while since I looked through it, but on the first page (and the only one i've written on) it's me talking about my Wisdom Teeth extraction from last June. (No wonder I'm so dumb now, eh? XD) So basically, here's what I said. 

"'What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.' As I go in to have my wisdom teeth pulled/extracted, no matter how much pain I am in, I will be stronger for going through with it." 

Not that long, and not exactly that deep, but it's pretty interesting all the same. 

I can tell the book is LDS in nature, by the fact that many of the quotes are from former General Authorities and Presidents of the Church. Here's one from Hugh B. Brown. 

     "There never was another like you in this world. God throws the mold away every time he makes a man.... I think He made you what you are in order that you might do some particular thing better than anyone else in the world could do it." 

Doesn't that just give you the warm fuzzies? I know it does me. We're all unique and better than others at different things. Perhaps my talent for drawing may bring someone to know of the church. Or perhaps my singing will bring someone peace. We don't know, but we all have a work to do. 

And now that I've commandeered the past few minutes, I hope you think about what the quote means to you. Maybe the Lord has something special in store for you. But that's up to you to figure it out. And if you have any amazing quotes, be sure to share it with someone you care about. :) GOOD LUCK ON FINALS for all you crazy college students that are reading this! ;)

Horse riding lessons

Alright, so Friday (last night) I started riding lessons. First off, I'm excited because it's horses. I mean, seriously, just the thought of being around horses makes me happy. Second, I'm excited, because I can now saddle a horse by myself....well, alright, I'm not that good, yet. But I got to tighten the cinch on one of the horses. It requires a lot of muscle. lol  Something which I can tell I'm gonna get from doing this every week, and maybe I'll be able to go to the house of one of the people in my neighborhood and ask to ride their horse. Big maybe, though. I'm not sure I entirely trust their horse.... Anyways, on to number three. Third off, I'm excited because I had a lot of fun, and i'm not sore, besides what feels like bruises on my seat. I'm pretty sure it's from when I'd lose my balance and rhythm, and I bounce up and down on the saddle. I know they aren't bruises, but they definitely feel like it. lol Fourthly, I'm excited because the lady that's teaching me and my sister, said that she might takes us on a cattle round up or something. =/ I can't remember what it's called. But imagine, when I get good, and can spend longer amounts of time on the back of a horse.... All day, pretty much! :D That just made my day. Anyways, so that's pretty much it for the lesson. I have a pic of me on Hawk, a horse that was rescued from abusive owners. He's nice, and it's pretty easy to post on. (Posting is bouncing up and down in rhythm with the horses feet, but it's not hitting the saddle, unless you mess up. lol) Anyways, that's me and my first horse riding lessons. And I'm not even as sore as I thought I would be. :D Woohoo!