It's been one week and I feel like I'm already failing at my goal.
Starting school again, all I can think is get me out of here! There is no cohesion from my team, though we try. I feel outnumbered by people who are changing the strong school it used to be into a regular public school. And I am beginning to feel like I don't belong.
For 2 1/2 years, I was pretty happy with the people I was around at my job. Now, I feel like I'm being outcast.
And it's not just school. I'm starting to feel again like I have no friends at school or anywhere. I don't ever do anything or really go anywhere or spend time with anyone besides J and my family. And I have not felt that way for a long time, so it's kind of a shock!
Maybe something good is on its way into my life and Satan is trying to keep me from it. I don't know. For now, I'm going to just keep pushing through and doing the best I can.