I don't know what to do....

I feel so down.

I thought it was because I'm bored. But I'm not sure that's the real reason.



I just don't know what to do.

Bored

It is day 2 of summer break (not including the holiday weekend) and I am pretty much bored.

Yes, there is tons of stuff I could be doing. Like emptying more boxes from my room and putting things away or cleaning the house. Heck, I could even be swimming!

But I'm not because I'm tired of going through boxes and putting things away. We don't have the cleaning stuff I need/want in order to clean. (We have a broom and laundry detergent. That is it. And I really don't want to just use towels/paper towels to clean the floor.) And I hate being outside in the heat of the day. Okay, not really. I just really do not want to burn from the midday sun.

Instead, I have started sitting at my computer a little more. I've been blasting my Disney spotify. I have been drawing like crazy. I have been watching Netflix. And I do go swimming. (Just not until after 3, sometimes after 4.)

So I guess it's my own fault that I'm getting bored. That just means I'll have to start exercising more or having parties with people.

Kara? Ali? Anyone want to come swim/hang out? haha




But really. I'm kind of going insane here.

Two types of end of the years.

There are two different kinds of end of the school years for teachers. Those have different levels, but it is still two main types.

1. You cry because you'll miss all of your sweet little angels.

2. You laugh because you've become insane and/or wanted to kick them out the door.

My year has caused the en of the year to be number 2. I wanted to kick them out the door. Instead, I chose to be nicer, but the point is, I have probably gone insane after this year.

Yes, I had a few very sweet students that I will miss. But for the most part, I couldn't care less. All I'm happy about is that they are long gone!! It is the best feeling to be rid of that group!

Now I'm hoping next year will be sweet ones again. Not likely, but I can hope, right?

Winding down

The school year is winding down!! It's hard to believe I actually survived this year!

You know how most people say (no matter what it is) the first year is the hardest? They lie. It is a total lie. My second year teaching was way harder than my first. And I blame the drama and all of the changes in the district.

But who cares anymore? This is the last week of school!!!!!! Only 3 1/2 more days with the kiddos, and then a day to close out and be done for the summer!!

I'm thinking a party is in order to celebrate!

Random thoughts

I know, I know.… I'm like the worst blogger in the world. Haha it's only because I'm so busy doing other things. Like working, being with my husband, watching Mythbusters, buying a new house, packing, and working some more.

Yes, we bought a house closer to things we like and we move in like less than a week, even though I've been telling people it will be a while. Haha

Teaching is tough. Next week is one test, then we get a week break from tests, and then we do our last major test, and then we stay busy until the last day of school!! I can't believe we're down to only six weeks!!

I've also been doing some art and creating things. Not big like I used to, but I want to get back into elaborate drawings and maybe try some elaborate paintings. Which, then I would need to create an etsy so I could sell them instead of stockpiling all of my work!! Haha maybe I'll use some in the new place as art. Or it will turn like this house and I'll get so overwhelmed by decorating that I just won't do it. Haha

I'm sorry my blog is pretty much dead! I don't post because I don't know if people read or not and if no one reads, why post?

I hope everyone has a happy Friday!! I know I will!!! It's early release!!!!! Yay!!!!!!

Worst week

I'm sitting here at almost 4 in the morning because the rain woke me up from a very weird dream about Downton Abbey and another part that I can't really remember.

Yesterday was one of the WORST days in my teaching career. And today is looking like it might be as well.

I am an emotional person. Overly emotional. It's not good. Yesterday, something set me off crying and I couldn't stop. Do you know how hard it is to control that when you have 28 students depending on you? It was very close to impossible. Especially after I went to pick them up from music and found out they had messed around for 20 out of 30 minutes. They basically lost their recess because she made them owe 5 minutes and it took time to walk there and back.

All the rest of the day, the same students were talking all day long, which means I get to play musical desks… again. As we were going over their hw for the night, I had finally had it. I looked at the corner that had talked all day and said something I now regret. I told them they made me hate my job. I don't remember if I said them or the talking, but I was not happy. And that touched off another round of tears.

Our 'team' meeting is Thursday after school. We've had some issues which I won't go into, but we've had two teachers at school this week out of four. That means me and my neighbor are the ones carrying our team, and because of that, I know our scores are going to drop significantly this year. Anyways, one shows up for our meeting and tension just mounts until it finally explodes. I wanted to run out of the room to escape.

Today is not looking good. I'm awake because it's raining. I prayed and prayed for it to NOT rain. We are/were supposed to have track and field day today. I got everything done that I needed to yesterday. I have no clue what I'm going to do all day!! The kids may just get worksheets. I don't know what else to do.

So please, pray that at least at school I keep my sanity. Because if I have another day like yesterday, i will probably go insane.

Confessions

So, I've been working on typing my story up because I really want to get it published sometime.

It's going well. I can't wait until its done!! Halfway through what is handwritten.